give me faith to trust what You say.

I'm not sure what i want to do with my life. Honestly, I'm not even sure I'm in the right major. I'm scared to death about not knowing the future. I love people, but I don't think I really want their lives to be placed in my hands. That scares me, to death.

I want to sing. I want to share Jesus with others. I want to teach math. I want to be on the sidelines reporting. I want to get married. I want to be an example of the lavish love that my amazing God has given me.

That's what I really want to do.

But you know, maybe it's not about the path I take, because I know for a fact that the Lord will use me wherever I am. But sometimes, its nice to know the details.

obedience.

"they said you came for the lame, i'm the lamest; i broke my life, but You say You'll replace it, i'll take it." very recently, I've been contemplating what exactly "faith" looks like in my life. So often, I find myself trusting the Lord whenever its convenient for me, like when I need to do well on a test or whenever I want something from the Lord. I say that I have "faith" that the Lord will provide, and yes while this is all in good intention, getting something for ME is the one of the only reasons why I do so. I recently read a quote by A.W. Tozer, "A world of confusion and disappointment results from trying to believe without obeying." Am I coming to the Lord in obedience or am I coming to the Lord in want and desire. I should be offering myself to Him and praising Him for the things He has done in my life, instead of all the time coming to Him in convenience. Then, will I find the joy that this heart of mine ever so desires. true happiness.